Confession Wednesday #17
Another day another dollar
It might be time for a sabbatical. Not from blogging…but from the I.T. industry. What?! Yup, I am really thinking about it and weighing my options. After passing my 12 year anniversary this summer I’m beginning to wonder what happened to the energetic person I used to be in an office. Backwards companies, strange politics, random assignments, lack of job structure and wacky people; while common in the “real world”, now becoming all too familiar in my world.
I’ve been burned out for a few years now and it’s taking it toll on me. I’ll get excited and motivated, but only in brief spurts. I have projects and ideas scribbled over scraps of paper and notebooks filled with diagrams and concepts…shelves filled with books…racks of computers; all for work I want to research, but I don’t have the energy to start. It’s not for lack of drive, but lack of strength to continue. I gave I.T. more than 100% and I feel like it has zapped 80% of my energy. Like I am constantly battling a brick wall: I feel drained.
Maybe I’m just starting to see the light after the last few years of feeling like I was in a bottomless pit…maybe this is just the start of climbing out? I’m not sure. I’ve made some cracks in the walls of a few companies, but at the end of the day I wave the white flag and move on.
Maybe it’s time to take a break and get recharged.
“If you neglect to recharge a battery, it dies. And if you run full speed ahead without stopping for water, you lose momentum to finish the race.”
– Oprah Winfrey, O Magazine, April 2003