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Confession Wednesday #17



I forgot what to do

Here I am at work, doing my normal work thing. What’s different today (and for the past three months or so) is that I don’t know what to work on when I sit at my desk.

Without getting too detailed: I have a stack of paperwork sitting next to me that would take a full day’s work to get through. That’s for one project. I have about a month’s worth of work that needs to get done for another project. I have daily work too: questions from people, files to post online, equipment to look after…and I try to do a little reading and research too.

I have no interest in doing any of it. It’s not that the work is overwhelming…actually a lot of it a monkey could do, but it’s annoying. What’s annoying? My work. I hate it. Life is tough and you are not always going to have the best projects and the best deadlines; you need to work -that’s why they call it work. I know that, but this work SUCKS!!

I feel like I am constantly putting our fires, vs planning for fire prevention. I’ve tried three different task management strategies…I’ve read project management books…organization books…motivation books…so you think you’re stuck books. Nothing is working. Why? Because you can’t make these methodologies work if you can’t do some parts. What do I mean?

[for example]

  • I have little to no power in terms of delegation.
  • I have little to no power over my workload.

Yes I know I could be an adult and say “Hey Mr. Employer; I’m buried. Please stop.” or “Hey Mr. Employer, could we try a different approach?” I could do that…oh wait, I have. No luck.

  • 90% of my tasks are emergency or high priority, so I can’t put them off without people knocking on my door…which is the next one.
  • When I shut my door, people knock all day
  • If I put my phone on DND, the operator calls and asks why it’s on DND…and I still get calls put through
  • When I take a break or a vacation, I get calls because we don’t have enough things documented…oops add that to the list of projects

There is just a never ending stream of crap that seems to flow right into my office. I used to not say “no” enough, now I do say “no” and sometimes that doesn’t work. I tend to be the “go to guy” for A TON of odd questions…the fax machine isn’t working so maybe I can fix it (which it’s usually some jammed piece of paper), the copier is broken (oh it says add paper), I can’t log into X website (oh your password is incorrect), the printer is out of paper (well why don’t you fill it?), the printer is out of toner (well why don’t you replace it?), I can’t spell my name (well why don;t you go back to kindergarten?), the toilet is plugged (yup, got that one before), where are the light bulbs, can you print this for me…OMG it’s never ending.

I’ve been doing this type of work for over 10 years and it never changes: I.T. is the end all for every question under the sun. Why does it have to be like this? I appreciate the fact people think I know some of this stuff, but wow…is there anything you want to do on your own?

This is why I have no time and I am totally drained, I feel like I am babysitting for a classroom of 5 year olds -and I don’t want kids…so you can see where my attitude is going.

Actually…I feel better for just yelling all that. Thanks blog for letting me type [walk] all over you.

“There are two ways of meeting difficulties: you alter the difficulties or you alter yourself meeting them.”
– Phyllis Bottome

In other news #26



Love is all you need

Have you seen the movie Love Actually? Well you should…at least for the wedding scene. For a few weeks I have had the Beetles song “Love is all you need” in my head because of that scene. So I go on iTunes (and I search Amazon too) and apparently you can’t get that version of the song. I did find two other versions that rock so I’m happy.

Where am I going with this? Well I need to back up a second…so hold your horses please and thank you. :)

Last night I got kinda down. I have a new friend that has the same name as Miss 33 [recall: Memoirs of a love astray] but this new friend is just a friend -gender incompatibility there (ha!), but it’s painfully annoying when I talk to her because I feel rude: I rarely say her name because it feels odd. I haven’t said that name to address someone in quite some time…brings back memories. My new friend is also a champion hug giver, and anyone who knows me personally knows: bd loves hugs!

So it’s not that hugging my new friend or her name is making me think about Miss 33; actually that’s not quite it at all. It’s just making me recall what it is like to love someone deep down inside. I miss that feeling…a lot. Hugs are wonderful, but now I am recalling what it’s like to hug someone when there is something more behind it. With that memory recall comes a yearning for that feeling.


Well that song in the movie makes me smile and not worry about it so much anymore. I’ve been busy with work and school and that has helped me not think about things…with a little break between classes I needed a little *boost* and that song does it. It’s slightly odd because you would think it would have the reverse affect, but it doesn’t. :)

So, when you’re lonely just remember: Love is all you need. La la la laaaaaaaaa Hm hm hm hmmmmm….Ba da da da daaaaaaa Love is all you need. :)

“Love makes the time pass. Time makes love pass.”
– French Proverb

Photo moment #14



“Whatever women do they must do twice as well as men to be thought half as good. Luckily this is not difficult. “
– Charlotte Whitton, Canada Month, June 1963

Yea that was for the girls…Woohoo feminism! ;)

In other news #25



This is old news

Looks like I should have read my monthly horoscope before the month was over. How do these folks figure this crap out…damn. At least I can say I wasn’t a victim of my own self-fulfilling prophecy. I chose NOT to read next month’s! :)

“Watch out for a tricky situation that could turn serious the 23rd.”
Sniped from: Monthly Forecast for August, 2005
Provided by

Daily Horoscope



Scorpio – InfoSpace

Well well well…looks like I will need to step up to the plate soon. I just wonder where the heck the plate is located at. Good luck and putting my money where my mouth is. Oooo wait I got it! I had a heck of a time getting the classes I want this semester, maybe I’ll get lucky and get the ones I want on the days that work out best for me! I like it!!

“Ready to put your money where your mouth is? You should be, because some very beneficial cosmic influences have quite a line-up of luck in store for you. Things are ready to roll your way, but you have to be willing to say the word to set things in motion. It’s merely a matter of deciding how and where you want to go. If the stars are your destination, then say so — you have the means to reach them should you so desire.”
Daily Horoscope: Scorpio – InfoSpace

Photo moment #13



“Books are the quietest and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors, and the most patient of teachers.”
– Charles W. Eliot, The Happy Life, 1896